lesson of the day.

Why lying and stuff isn't good.

So reading the internet isn't good when reading about medical symptoms because you might have the cold and think you have the plague. It is just so "well my law and order degree says...".
But I had a loose idea of what might be wrong and I took a look and it pretty much matches up. Low blood pressure. There is a family history of it. I have had dizzy spells/fainting since I was a kid. There is nothing more embarrassing then to wake up on the floor of the bathroom after you recall walking in there just a second before. So....I will go and see the doctor and say, "eh?" and he will probably go "yup" and then we will figure out what to do from there.

I said to Mr. Jenner last night, "the stress of wedding planning probably kept my blood pressure at a decent level and then once all the aggravation went away and I got married, went on a nice honeymoon, got a new job and I am in a relaxed state -it drops. I should go work in a war zone or something to keep my blood pressure up. hee."

Now to put on my orange tights.

boring talk about work.

There is something kind of entertaining about upper-corporate culture. There is a hell of a lot of time to waste isn't there? There was a Halloween decorating contest and these people seriously get into it. There is also a lot of free food. (most of which is terribly bad for you)
Work was equally difficult and interesting. I have to say it is an all around challenge at times. There are moments when I think to myself, "oh fuck I just want to quit. I fucking can't do this. I am so out of my element. I am too stupid to do this." But I also am thinking for the first time in my life, "Wait, I can do this. I can learn this." It is proving to be a battle with my non-existent self-esteem. This might prove to be good for me. Obviously I gave the impression I can do this stuff when they interviewed me.

( Now talk about pretty things and dumb folk )

It is raining. Let's hide inside and get cozy.