Aug. 30th, 2007
Someone on my f-list asked a question/thoughts on a subject and I told her a story about my Grandma in relation to the subject. The story was about my Grandma dying. I've told people over the years about her death. It isn't a huge hairy deal for me to talk about it. Her death was -at the time incredibly difficult to deal with and I still miss her a great deal. For the most part I tend to be matter of fact about all of that. But after posting the story I was overcome with such intense sadness. (almost like the feelings I had when she died) I burst into tears. I rarely ever cry so it was a great surprise to have all of that come to the surface. Even stranger was the fact that it didn't hurt to cry. I hate to cry because it physically hurts.
Maybe I am calming down and softening a bit in my old age.
Maybe I am calming down and softening a bit in my old age.