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the cocoa was good.
Jan. 13th, 2014 10:59 pmI am up. I am down. I am trying to wrestle my brain. I get through it but it leaves a person worn out at the end of the day. Still. I did things. They were all little things. But they were things to show I did something with the day besides try and convince myself that I am not dying or that I am all right.
I have to remind myself it is January and when my health goes to pieces I tend to get dramatic.
I took care of my daughter. I hope she gets better soon. I made dinner. I sorted out replacing my debit card which I lost like a brilliant person. (somewhere after Iceland I lost it.) The customer service rep for TBS was quite nice and helpful. I should get a card again in the next five working days. That'll do. I finished booking things for the extended Jenner family weekend trip to Legoland. Tickets and lodging are in order. It should be a fun trip for the kids and their cousins. it works out that there should be one adult for every child.
I will use my lightbox. I will try and find time for a few minutes of quiet where I do nothing. I will take hot baths and read comforting books. I will paint my nails as a means of creating a bit of distracting pretty in my life. I will go outside when it is sunny and open my eyes extra wide and stare at the sun. I will accept that I can't control things and that most things turn out all right.
I just find myself so weary that my brain and body are a constant battleground for anxiety and depression.
Something that felt really good and cheered me up was an email from Senor Onion. (he has an email account he uses to email family members.) He told me he hopes I feel better soon. (my back was giving me a bit of trouble this evening.) It was a delightful surprise. That kid. He has such a kind and vast heart.
I have to remind myself it is January and when my health goes to pieces I tend to get dramatic.
I took care of my daughter. I hope she gets better soon. I made dinner. I sorted out replacing my debit card which I lost like a brilliant person. (somewhere after Iceland I lost it.) The customer service rep for TBS was quite nice and helpful. I should get a card again in the next five working days. That'll do. I finished booking things for the extended Jenner family weekend trip to Legoland. Tickets and lodging are in order. It should be a fun trip for the kids and their cousins. it works out that there should be one adult for every child.
I will use my lightbox. I will try and find time for a few minutes of quiet where I do nothing. I will take hot baths and read comforting books. I will paint my nails as a means of creating a bit of distracting pretty in my life. I will go outside when it is sunny and open my eyes extra wide and stare at the sun. I will accept that I can't control things and that most things turn out all right.
I just find myself so weary that my brain and body are a constant battleground for anxiety and depression.
Something that felt really good and cheered me up was an email from Senor Onion. (he has an email account he uses to email family members.) He told me he hopes I feel better soon. (my back was giving me a bit of trouble this evening.) It was a delightful surprise. That kid. He has such a kind and vast heart.
