well this is boring.

[gfrancie]

It is hard to watch your home nation do insane terrible things to itself. Wishing you could do something but really all I can do is watch. Imagine watching a building burning from across the road and not being able to do a damn thing.
And it takes up so much of my head space. I want to be able to write something fun and snarky.
Instead it is taken up with that dark terrible feeling, and such anger. "CAN'T YOU SEE THIS IS DANGEROUS??? I think of people I knew who likely voted for that man. I think of one old friend who used to be so... open to the world. And then life happened and she drew fear and ignorance close to her.
I want to write lightness.
And then I think what is the point.
And where to find that lightness?
And I am feeling really down on what I should be doing with myself... in general. With my life. (and when it comes to writing, I don't feel worthy or capable.) Which is boring as hell.

Comments

[rebeccmeister.livejournal.com]

That's a hard space to occupy.

I am going to partially spoil a book for you, but maybe not because I don't even know if it's the sort of thing you'd pick up. My housemate L strongly recommended reading The Fifth Season, to the point where he was trying to buy copies of it to give to the rest of us. Books 1 and 2 of a trilogy are published so far. It's fantasy, but with certain key aspects that have a basis in reality. It took me a stupidly long time to realize that it was talking about climate change in something of a speculative fiction manner (in addition to covering a wide range of social issues). And that made me wake up and pay attention to the book in a new and different way. Here's where we need fiction: we humans aren't always good at imagining the future. Fiction is one way that we can share imaginings, though. Fiction holds power.

Sometimes I also find that I just have to sit with myself for a while.

[sallysimpleton.livejournal.com]

Weeelll, I think you are worthy and capable. K & I found a funny blog post review of a cookbook the other day, and K said, "this person reminds me of G." I agreed wholeheartedly at how the voice jumped right off the page. I told her that's how I found you -- that your writing was too entertaining for me to pass up so I kept (keep) coming back for more.

[kaligrrrl.livejournal.com]

all my love.