way too much realness on a Thursday

[gfrancie]

For the most part, my anger/disappointment (over Brexit, and the US election) kind of fuel me so that I don't fall into a certain place in the abyss. My MO tends to be, "Fuck this shit." The sort of person who grabs a bat and says, "Let's go fight fascists!!! Let's obstruct every god damn thing! Let's do this."

I was watching the Christmas special of "Outnumbered" and every so often a character would stare into the distance and look shell-shocked and dejected and someone would say, "you okay?" and they would respond, "Yeah... you know... Trump." (it was a funny gag) Then the other night I glanced at the calendar and saw how soon Trump's swearing in will be and there was that swoosh dropping feeling and I found myself staring into the middle distance (probably with that shocked look upon my face) "shit... this is really happening. Trump!?! This is real." At least with Brexit the chaotic limbo kind of allows us to tell ourselves the lie, "oh well... maybe it won't happen. Maybe people will wise up." (but then I remember British people sure love to suck down a bowl of misery, the way other people like to breathe. But on the other hand the present government is so busy trying to act like they have a plan, that they may beg for an extension like a shit student.) So it always remains just a tiny bit out of reach. But the stumpy-fingered wannabe in the poorly tailored suit who thinks he is gonna get respect... that bogeyman is real as hell. Him and all his goblins who are trying to gain favor so they can enjoy their pet project of fucking over America and the world. Never have I wanted so many to be shoved off a cliff like that terrible lemmings film. "oh they can't help themselves, they like leaping off of cliffs. wink wink"

I only allowed myself to sit with that terror for about five minutes. I have things to do. I have battles to fight. I give myself those five minutes now and then, and then dig deep to find more energy because like many there isn't a choice about giving up and walking away. There are human lives at stake, and I can't watch a bunch of assholes try and casually murder a bunch of people. So I do my little bit here and there. It seems so small but my hope is, that many small things will lead to better things and a little bit of relief now and then. I am trying to squash my fear and not let all those fuckos take my courage or anyone else's.

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[land-girl.livejournal.com]

I don't really believe it is happening. My mum died and Trump won the election, within a couple of hours of each other, and I am in denial about all of it. Sometimes I think he might have a heart attack, or end up in prison before he is sworn in, or something will happen to stop him - but as time marches on it looks less and less likely. Bisonfish says that Nixon was worse. That is scant comfort. All I keep thinking is: give these fuckwits one term, and nobody will ever want their like again. And it is easier for us to be properly angry about somebody like Trump, than, say, somebody like Cameron who was polite and said lots of the right things. So maybe there will be a proper revolution. Oh, and I am laughing about all the people who don't want to perform for the inauguration. That is properly cheering me up. But yeah. It seems to be happening, with or without our blessing, and apart from the odd rant I don't know what to do about it.

[gfrancie.livejournal.com]

Now that is one shit day right there.
I am hoping that a bear eats him. I know they are hibernating right now but I just wish that one will wake up, feel really hungry and eat him. That way I can say, "Can't argue with the ways of nature."

Cameron was a piece of shit but he pretended to sound civil, so people were fooled in a different way. Those conned by Trump are the sorts of people who always think they can win over a con. Arrogance and ego sure makes people do some wild things.

I do enjoy the fact that for all Trump's attempts in life to be seen as a somebody who has respect and admiration, he will always always be a bit of a joke. Because he doesn't have one bit of humility.

[slemslempike.livejournal.com]

Maybe the climate change he contributes to will wake the bears up early, so they can do what can only be described as their duty.

[indighost.livejournal.com]

That is depressingly hopeful. Or hopefully depressing. I can't decide.

[sholanda.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear about your mum.

[land-girl.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It was a blessing at the end, as she had been brain-dead for a few days, and we were strangely elated - but I miss her.

[kukla-red.livejournal.com]

I lived through the Nixon years too. This is worse. SO much worse. Why is it worse? Because Nixon and his cronies knew enough to be secretive about the crap they pulled. They knew it was illegal and wrong and terrible, so they hid it and they lied and they covered that shit up with all sorts of stuff. What is happening now is way worse because they know it is illegal and wrong and terrible, but they are being out and proud about it. They are yelling it from the towers, taking it to the streets and having a blast. Let's be racist! Who cares - we have a president elect who is as racist as we are! Let's be card-carrying members of the He-Man Women haters club! Who cares - we have a president elect who is the Fearless Leader of the club and wants to roll back women's rights to the Stone Age, so who cares!

You get my drift.

I never sucked my thumb before, but I may start.

[land-girl.livejournal.com]

You make a good point :-/

[siduri1959]

That pretty much sums up how I feel about all this. Taking it one day at a time and hoping for the best. And staying vigilant.

[indighost.livejournal.com]

Fantastic poem, thank you for sharing.

I feel sick whenever I think about Trump sliming his way into the White House. I am also trying to pretend it's not going to happen. And even if he gets impeached or not allowed to take office, I can't feel much better about Pence holding the office.