hassles

I think I may have to go to the doctor to see about doing something for my panic disorder. I have done a bit of research when it comes to what drugs are offered on the NHS and it doesn't give me a lot of hope. Like... what the NHS offers is about 15 years behind the US in some respects. I am trying to find that one magic pill that will calm my fucking brain, but won't kill my sex drive, and make me gain a bunch of weight. I refuse to do Prozac. I was on zoloft -which helped when things were truly bad but again the killed sex drive, and there was a bit of weight gain and the biggest bitch of all was coming off of it. It has such a short half-life and I spent two months white-knuckling it.
I don't need to do CBT. I rely on that much of the time. I NEED something to calm my brain down for awhile so I can DO my CBT again.
I need to figure out how to approach the GP. "HEY listen, this isn't my first time at the rodeo. I am American and can talk SSRIs with the best of them. What can you do?"