gfrancie | (no subject)

My GP is working on sorting out some physical stuff. (my intestines are crazy inflamed so there will be blood work and other civilized stuff.)
I am also creating a possible plan to deal with the anxiety flare-ups.
I had a good day today. It was busy. And there were a few moments where I was hit by that wave of sadness/fear but I was able to make it drop and disappear.
The feeling is very real but it isn't all of me.

I had a really good driving lesson. (My test is in October) My instructor said, "You really showed what you can do. It clicked." Maybe it helped to chew gum to get rid of that nervous energy. Chomping away like a cow.
I began work on a piece that I am hoping to send off soon for submission to a literary journal. "hey reject me I don't care."

I have to remember I am capable.