Saturday Morning Dreams

So I had this dream last night that I was married and I was with a number of writers. Many of which I didn't care for. I was on the bus alot and I would look out the window and see all the violent and horrific tragedies and many of them left me numb. Especially when I saw a helicopter crash into a building. I merely looked at it and thought, "oh...that man won't be getting home on time today."
Then there was a man in the dream. I knew him. He seemed to work next door to me and he sort of looked like a celebrity. He seemed kind of sad too. We would talk about Italian food and children. It seems I had children too but I don't recall who they were. They seemed like faint images. Ghosts if you will.
He kept asking me to go on walks and to come to this one restaurant with him.
He was married and had children as well.
I was so reluctant because I knew that going down that road was dangerous.
The funny thing was I wasn't exactly married to Andrew in the dream. The guy looked slightly like Andrew and he was some sort of writer as well.
The other man....Bill was his name lived near by and would bring me these beautiful loaves of bread and kept leaving me notes inside the bread saying to "just come with me." He would try to kiss me or hold my hand but I would always resist at the last moment remembering I was married.
I couldn't bring myself to do such a thing. One night My husband, and two writers came to dinner. Everything I would bring out and arrange this one particular girl would mess with it and I would stay mute. She seemed keen upon my husband and I just felt sadder and I thought "well I can't get divorced...but I suppose I must. She wouldn't be great for him, but she will do."
I recall that the the quieter girl kept trying to point something out to me and I was never able to find out what her message was but it was something about not trusting the girl keen upon my husband.
Then Another loaf of bread showed up asking me to go on a walk.
I put on this long scarf and said I needed to go out for a while....and then I saw Bill standing there. I wanted to say that I couldn't do this and I woke up.
In the dream I just felt so lonely and most people didn't have defined faces.
What makes me laugh is the fact that I couldn't bring myself to have an affair or kiss another man in a dream.
Even Colin Firth *laughs*
I am too Catholic for my own good sometimes.

cook this!

I have been meaning to do a bit of cooking as of late but there isn't the inspiration to tackle anything.
I made some chocolate orange biscuits awhile back and they have kept rather well. They are nice tea/coffee biscuits. They are not overly sweet and it has a few different flavors.
I got this out of Delia Smith and have tinkered with the recipe a bit. Plus this is something that can be made easily in the vegan form.

You will need
-3 oz of dark chocolate chopped into small pieces (50-55 percent cocoa solids. I used 70 percent solids but I like my chocolate to be fairly intense)
-the grated zest of one large orange Plus 1 Tbsp of fresh orange juice
-2/3 cup of softened butter (or soy-based butter for the vegans)
-3/4 cup of baker's sugar (which is refined granulated sugar)
-3/4 cup of flour (sifted)
-2 Tbsp baking powder


You begin by beating together the butter and sugar and then sift in the flour and baking powder into the creamed mixture.
I should add that you will want to sift the flour and then measure it before adding it. When you sift flour you tend to create more volume and you might add too much flour which will cause all sorts of bothersome problems.
You will then add the chocolate and orange zest. Mix everything together until it forms a stiff paste.
You will then roll the paste out onto a lightly floured surface. One should get excited anytime you get to use the rolling pin. I know I do. And remember if you don't own a rolling pin a wine bottle works rather well.
You will want to roll the paste out to a thickness of 1/2-1/4" Then using a 2 " cutter (or small glass) you will make small rounds. Place those on a greased baking sheet. You can then add a bit of the baker's sugar ontop. Bake them for about 15-20 minutes (depending on how awful your oven is) until they are a lovely golden brown color. It is better to remove them slightly underdone from the oven then to have dangerous rocks. You will want to let them cool on a wire rack.
Ta-da You have something to chew on with your coffee, tea or bourbon.


Lord in heaven I have quite the headache. I think I need to find some advil.
Now...what else should I make today...*begins to look through the kitchen*
I need a decent springform pan.

Tea?

I rarely do this shit anymore but I have a cake in the oven and some time to kill

Imagine if you will that Miss Gennie somehow wins a ton O cash. Not five bucks from a scratch ticket cash, but Trump Cash.

1. Who do you call first?
I would call up my place of current employment and tell them to take Oprah's book and stick it somewhere uncomfortable, because I quit.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
I suppose I would buy a useless pair of shoes. But I do that often enough. I would probably buy myself a lovely string of pearls to go with my money.

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
A large pretty house in the country for my entire family to use at their whim. I would buy back the house I grew up in.

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
Of course. I would become a Grand dame of the arts and support all sorts of lovely projects. Like the late Mrs. Kroc. I would hand out money to people who want to make films, start performing art centers in the boonies. Put kids through school. Just encourage people to be creative. And give money to NPR, just to be a bastard. I would give tons to charity. I would just hand it out like I was freaking Santa Claus

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
Of course. Probably a lot into the arts because civilization means nothing without the creative spirit. I would also invest money in science, math, anything where a person shows they want to improve the nature of humanity. Give money to the research of all sorts of diseases.
I would want to invest in people.

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Today I am making a sponge cake with a lemon curd filling. I always have fun making lemon curd. It tastes terrific the day after it has been cooked. I could eat huge spoonfuls on toast.
I ought to create a raspberry glaze for the top of the cake.

So much to toss about.

I love eggs.