better now

I am finding the time of day when things feel extra low is kind of well-timed. Because I have to go and pick up my son from school and it involves walking. It's a 1/3 of a mile each way. Obviously it isn't hard-core but it forces me to get out -physically, and in turn get out of my head a bit. Often after doing that, I feel a little more at peace. It is that sort of thing where your head is always moving/racing but just the act of walking sort of allows me to out-run my brain. I can think things out but it calms my brain to find a rhythm and I am not so wound up in the head with the anxiety and indecision.

I suppose I am in the right place for walking. I also figure that it goes well with something someone mentioned (may have been my friend S.) about spending a month of just trying something. Even just a month can allow the time to create a shift in thinking about some things in one's life.

Today I took Miss Biscuit swimming this morning. It's a thing I do with my sister in law, my mother in law, and the nieces. (it's cheap and gets the kids some activity.) I always balk a bit about going. "oh no......... I have to move." But I do it. It is a good thing. Today Miss Biscuit wanted to try out the big flipping slide that goes round and round. I was hesitant as she might have been scared. I have to remember that this is my fearless wonder. One go and she was hooked. She shouted, "AGAIN!" when we reached the bottom. We went two more times. I tried to take her back to the pool and she broke down into tears because she wanted to go again. We went again. She shouts, "Yippie-yo-ki-ay" as we go down the slide. It was a blast.
I can't rely on others to always save me and take me out of my head but I definitely appreciate this role that does require me to do things and just be present for others. So hey, thank you humanity.

I am sounding awfully Oprah here. *snorts*
Breathing. Moving. Reminders of the constant change. Which is okay.